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Shadow

would it be still love when i can’t get you out of my head?

maybe it’s love but maybe it’s only desire from despair.
it breaks my heart when i realize that not all the roses are red. there is blue, yellow, white and even black. and still, i catch your shadow in those red roses.

it wasn’t blind love you said. it was just me trying to realize that it is what it is even somehow what it is is not it is. and still, i catch your shadow.

we both know, love for us is hard to catch even it’s easy to be found. we are never meant to be. and still, i catch your shadow.

even it doesn’t hurt at all but it’s still there, hanging out inside of me. and i can’t get it out of me. i know i should. i just don’t know when. and still, i catch your shadow.

they said it will be gone when i find someone new. someone who will break this prison built inside of me with their hammer or any other tools. and, still i catch your shadow.

i won’t blame you. i won’t blame anything we’ve been through. even that you’re already gone now. and still, i catch your shadow.

i love you.

it’s not a poem or whatever it is. it’s just me, trying to reach you. you, the real you. not only a glimpse of your shadow.

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Cita-cita dan Idola

Dulu, waktu masih SD, di kelas, seringlah beredar buku biodata. Di dalam buku itu, ada titik-titik atau garis puanjaaaangggg yang harus diisi berupa nama lengkap, tempat tanggal lahir, zodiak, alamat, nomor telepon, hobi, sekolah, kelas, cita-cita, kata mutiara/motto/semboyan hidup dan juga tokoh idola.

Waktu ai kelas enam SD, ni buku rajin banget berseliweran di meja ai. Jumlahnya nggak cuma satu dua, tapi bisa sampe lima atau tujuh sekali tulis. Maklum, waktu itu, teman2 ai berdalih, buat kenang2an mau lulusan. Okelah. Karena biar keren, ai pun ikut nulis2 buku itu. Ai nggak punya buku kayak gitu, karena ai pikir, what for, entar SMP juga ketemu lagi. *walhasil, pas SMP, hampir 80% temen2 ai, ya temen2 SD itu, jadi nggak ada perpisahan.*

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